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Restoration from Sexual Assault is Attainable…Look at my Life

 

 

It’s been 9,862 days since my sexual assault occured 27 years ago today.  Over the decades, I have been tormented by fear, anxiety, and loss of trust in the world.  I have wept, grieved, and experienced one of the most horrific things a woman can endure.

But today, I stand here a stronger woman.  The man who sodomized me did not destroy me. The man who robbed me did not steal my pursuit of happiness.  The man who fled from that hotel room didn’t have within him what I had.  I had resilence. Determination. God’s grace. The love of family.

I came out the victor.

But how about all the other women who get harrassed, assaulted, raped?  Will they recover?  Will they have the belief to not give up hope of restoration?

Restoration came to me from many different places.  In honor of 27 years, I’ll give you 27 of the most important things that helped me.

  1. God
  2. Counseling from a Psychologist
  3. Counseling from a Psychiatrist
  4. Yoga
  5. Meditation
  6. Beth Moore Bible Study
  7. Community Bible Study
  8. Writing my memoir
  9. Public speaking
  10. Being a mentor to other survivors
  11. Jesus Calling by Sarah Young
  12. The Anxiety Disease by David Sheehan, MD
  13. My family
  14. Writing a blog
  15. Writing in a journal
  16. Speaking at sexual assault conferences
  17. Reading about post traumatic stress disorder
  18. Cognitive Behavioral Therapy
  19. Learning to say no
  20. Recognizing when exhaustion can turn into depression
  21. Self care
  22. Rest
  23. Anti depressants
  24. Learning about anxiety and depression and how they are cousins and often travel together
  25. Learning how to combat the evil cousins
  26. Finding my voice
  27. Using my voice to share there is hope

 

Sexual Assault Victims MUST break the silence

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A New York Times article this week recounted how an 18-year-old freshman reported her rape and regretted doing so after Hobart and William Smith Colleges held her disciplinary hearing.  According to the New York Times article, “panelists interrupted her answers, at times misrepresented evidence and asked about a campus-police report she had not seen. The hearing proceeded before her rape-kit results were known, and the medical records indicating trauma were not shown to two of the three panel members.”

The main takeaway from this is that first responders, law enforcement officers, and officials from Higher Education can re-traumatize the sexual assault victim.

I know a great deal about this because after my sexual assault at an Atlanta hotel in 1990, security officials created secondary victimization for me by escorting me to security offices of the hotel and placing me just feet from a man they believed was the perpetrator.  I realized instantly they had apprehended the wrong man, but in that split second, the man lunged toward me and violently screamed at me, “You f@@#$ing bitch, I didn’t do this you you!”  I was already traumatized from the robbery and sexual assault which had occured in the hour before, but this secondary victimization was absolutely ubsurd and should have never taken place.

In the opinion of the freshman student, the three panelists did the same to her.

Senator Claire McCaskill, a Missouri Democrat who has investigated the quality of campus rape investigations. recently surveyed 440 colleges and universities and found that one-third had failed to properly train officials adjudicating claims.

While the national debate continues over how best to stop sexual assaults on campuses, we must also roll up our sleeves and start educating higher education officials on how to prevent secondary trauma.  I plan to speak on this subject next month at the Police Officers Association of Georgia.  Stay tuned….